new year - new blog

woah...i think i'm finally caught up now on all my back posts from christmas on. if you know me in real life...please get on my case more about updating so i don't get that behind again!!

so, we're now half way through our first month of 2009. i'd like to say things are going well so far...but to do so wouldn't be completely honest. aside from the struggles of the economy right now affecting loved ones and their jobs, john and i are still encountering more obstacles on our path to expanding our family. i will leave it at that...on this blog anyway.

i've mentioned briefly in a prior post about our struggle with secondary infertility and vowed during that post not to mention it again...which i haven't. some of you may have seen the small timeline on the right hand sidebar (don't look now...it's no longer there) and kept up that way without having to ask...some of you may not have noticed...and others may not have cared to notice.

while i've been reading many blogs that deal with infertility and secondary infertility and find comfort in knowing others struggle with it, i haven't been comfortable enough to write about it myself, on my blog, because of family and friends who "just don't understand" or don't feel it's appropriate "to air our dirty laundry" on the internet. i'm not mad at them for feeling this way...and while i understand they are just not comfortable with the subject or the fact that there is a problem...there is a problem and i am at the point now where i might feel the urge to want to get something off my mind.

i never was one to keep journals growing up. i had a few diaries and notebooks here and there but i was never faithful to it and didn't do it so much as a therapy, but more because that's what everyone else was doing when i was younger. i often wonder if i had kept a journal for the right reasons, if, i don't know...i might have thought/done things differently. who knows. no regrets...that's for sure...i love my life and how i've gotten here...i just know there is so much more i can/should be doing.

as of today, i will be starting a second blog. i know, i know...christy, you dork...you can't even keep up with the 1 you have (not to mention the slight facebook addiction as well). but i feel it's necessary. the new blog will be where i discuss our issues with secondary infertility...update on doctors visits..."game plans" etc. i have found i've learned a ton from reading of others struggles and i hope that maybe others can learn from me regardless of whether or not you're struggling with it yourself. sadly enough, this is occuring more and more as the age of women having babies increases due to careers/second marriages, etc...and even if you're not struggling with it, you'd be surprised to learn that maybe you know someone who is...and knowing more about it, you might just be able to be a better support for that person.

the blog will be invite only (leave a comment on this post or email me - dcodydog@comcast.net - if you'd like me to add your email to the list to gain access). as of today, this topic will no longer be discussed on this blog. this will remain the fun, happy, tony d. centered blog it always was!